the last day of 2009

it was supposed to be a joyous occasion as we welcome a brand new year but i received a pretty bad news in the morning that might just affect me for the rest of my life. yes that's how serious it is. although nothing is confirm yet.. but i just pray for the best. pray for me too. dont worry it's not life threatening. and the doctor say "at least it's not cancer." but fuck at that moment i was thinking "I WOULD RATHER IT BE CANCER than being alive and aware to suffer this. i'm not that strong seriously. although i hope i am." i'm a faker.. there is no cure for this! anyway like what my colleague say "you don't have to use skin whitening product anymore!!" oh seriously FUCK OFF! and yes i told him that straight away. well at least i will still be alive and around to irritate you. it is not exactly a good start to 2010 but i am determined to make it right. although i am totally clueless how to go about doing it. right. enough about my emo-ing.

it's a mini tradition for me to recap on the things that i achieved in the past years. so yes i am going to do that for 2009 as well. (:

looking through my past entries i realised that it is really an eventful year for me. although some activities are not being recorded.. and yes i definitely GROW alot.. in terms of knowledge and skills... experiences alot and learnt alot.

and one of the best acheivement... i finally completed my studies!!! like after suffering for 3 years.. i'm finally free now. i'm so used to my busy life that i feel a sense of lost when i became less busy. now everyday was spent going out, shopping and hanging out with friends. not productive at all and i need to change that. on days when i get home earlier.. i have no idea what to do and ended up sleeping the whole night away. time to cultivate a hobby or learn a new skill or maybe even volunteer? always wanted to try volunteering at a hospice.. maybe i should start doing that too.

now at work... if you have been following my blog closely.. you should know how nervous i was for my workplace's 11th anniversary. my lovely boss put me in charge of the whole event when i'm still very new to the company.. lots of details to take note of and i'm someone that is not good with details at all. but i'm glad to have really supportive colleagues to help me through this and gave me advise and support me throughout the whole event. i'm glad that it went well and i must also thank my dearest guan yin and god for the awesome weather on that day. without the good weather.. no matter how well i plan it.. it will still not go through. my colleauge told me once you are in you .. YOU ARE IN. so i guess for 12th anniversary i need to start planning early unless something major happen to me if not im sure the arrow will still be shoooot over at my side. through this, i learnt the importance of team work and detailed planning. i cant possiblely achieved all these alone right?


as i spent more time with my residents at work.. i'm loving each and everyone of them more and more each day. their smiles and actions never fail to brighten up my boring day at work. i love how they greet me whenever they see me coming with their bright and cheery smile. it's indeed heartwarming to know that they are all starting to recognise you and accepting you. (:

i finally went on my first mission trip to myanmar (will blog about that soon). it was indeed an eye opener as i got to experience the simplicity of life... i went to give but ended up receiving even more from them. they taught me how to appreciate life as it is and be thankful for everything that i have now. through my interaction with them, i get to learnt about "the joy of giving" and they taught me how to stay happy no matter how bad the condition is. i'm definitely going for more mission trips in 2010 (hopefully if time permits). i really want to do more for them but i have my limitations too. sigh.


to all my buddies... thank you for staying on with me.. always being there for me when i need you. you know who you are :) i am looking forward to walk more years together with everyone of you. you did made a difference in my life. thank you for being part of me. :) i pray that 2010 will be a year filled with good news and happy memories for all of you. dont ever give up once you set your mind to something... be strong to fight away all obstacles to achieve what you want. and i know all these obstacles will only make you STRONGER AND BETTER. i will be here with you if you need me. and guess what? i can see you 2 years down the road wearing your graduation gown and throwing your mortar board high up into the sky!! yipee!! so no matter how hard it is now.. HANG ON!! and im sure you can do it and pick yourself up again. because you are not one who will give up easily right!! JIA YOOOU!!!

well.. it is not exactly a good start to 2010 but i believe that it will get better. there is alot of things that i have yet to do and yet to experience like falling madly deeply in love? hahaha. i pray that i will be strong enough to walk through this journey.

happy new year ziqi.
everything will be fine.
you will be okay!
be strong and smile. (:

signing off..